Things That Are Shit
Sunday, July 17, 2011 at 10:00PM I can’t get Hoyt’s words outta my mind. Calling my blood shit.
When I think about my blood, I think about its healing nature. Its way of connecting me to the man that I love. At least that’s how it used to be. But lately, it’s like the little rope tied to him at one end, and me at the other? It’s fraying or unraveling. All the fibers are coming apart and now we’re just a mess of string that used to be something strong.
When I think about things that are shit, I think of my daddy’s beatings. I think of what I did to Hoyt, with that guy at Fantgasia. I think of whoever or whatever beat Jason near to his death.
But my blood? My blood ain’t shit. Hoyt Fortenberry, you could not have been more wrong. My blood just saved someone’s life. Maybe it’s my fault that the rope is coming apart, but it ain’t my blood’s fault.
There are things that are shit, and then there are things that are not shit.
Reader Comments (178)
WAY TO GO HELPING JASON!! :)
Hoyt didn't mean it that way Jess, it just came out wrong. He didn't mean your blood specifically but vampire blood in general. To humans, vampire blood is a drug. It changes the human brain/body chemistry and alters our perception. He didn't mean to hurt your feelings.
You did well tongiht. I'm sure Jason will be thankful.
ur blood aint shit, thank god u saved jason, i was woried he was gonna die in the show, i would of been pissed.
Aw Jess, I don't think Hoyt really ment it that way and I think he likely regretted it the moment he said it. He wasn't looking at your blood from the healing standpoint when he said it. All that's in the media and such and around him all over the place is how easily addictive vampire blood is and what it does to a person. I think at that moment what hit him was the drug aspect. He was looking at you blood as V the latest drug of choice among people a type of holucinigen and upper. IDK like doing speed or something. And most people that want to stay away from all drugs and don't want anything to do with them will often say "don't want to but any of the shit in my system." Well, that's I think what he was thinking. He loves ALL of you, even your blood. I think he's just scared to death that if he has any he'll be hooked, and that he'll be the way Jason was for a time and Andy, that he'll be a V addict. And be the christian boy he is he worries about that stuff. I know it's rough though still to have your blood called that when it's what flows through ya. But ya know, just because ya fight about something doesn't mean you don't love each other, if anything it's perfectly normal. Talk to most married couples and you can bet that they've had anything from fights started over stupid things, to misunderstandings, to something that hurt the others that was said without one or both truely thinking it through. Stick with it hun, you know he loves you. :-)
Calivamp Louise Eirwen.
i think hoyt was thinking more from a perspective of his manhood and not wanting to seem weak from being healed by your blood all of the time. and they bruises are sort of a sign saying "i stood up for the woman i love"
"Shit" is just a euphemism. Like when, during sex, someone might say "yeah fuck that shit," unless they have a really wonky sex life, "that shit" is not shit, nor meant derogatorily. Nothing is weirder than taking offense to things not intended to offend or said with any malice. Doug Stanhope does a joke on that, where he talks about a mom giving birth, looking at the child and saying "damn, this is a weak looking kid...but how can we make him EVEN WEAKER? Oh, I know, lets make him take offense to certain arbitrary words!"
Some things aren't worth obsessing over, slips of the tongue is one. 99 Problems but my-boyfriend-calling-my-blood-shit-ain't-1
You are a young one yet our Jessica - and still trying to figure out the ways of your new life. What Hoyt said in some ways is no different than what his mama would say to him -- the cycle is an awful one. However what he said to you was hurtful, so very hurtful. Your blood, the blood... no matter what 'one is' is the sacred of life.
One night at a time ... and maybe you may need some time away from each other.. to discover who you are and for Hoyt who or what he truly wants. I know that is painful.. but it may nonetheless be the salve you both need.
Jess....I was thanking god when you and Hoyt came across Jason laying on the side of the road. I prayed first you wouldn't run him over, then rejoiced as you jumped out of the truck to save Jason. :) Hoyt will come around and your relationship will become strong again, especially now that Arlene's baby has the cursed doll from hell....LOL
Wishing you all the best and much love to you.
If you and Hoyt need to get away FL isn't too far! :)
Girl be ready for a love triangle because Jason will be on you like white on rice!