Nowhere to Go

On my fifteenth birthday, after having dinner at the church with my family, I snuck out with a few friends. We said we were going to get some root beer floats at Linnea and Tony’s Diner, but instead we went to the park one town over, where the public school kids would gather with brown bagged forties and stolen vodka. I had never been before, but my friend Erica used to go all the time and she was introducing me to everyone. I forgot most of ‘em, but there was this girl there, Nikki... she smelled kinda bad, and her hair was all tangled. I think she did it on purpose, she called them dreadlocks or something, but it didn’t look so good. I asked where she was from and she said she was born in De Soto parish, but she lived on the streets now. When I asked her why, she said got nowhere else to go. Then she shrugged her shoulders, lit up a hand-rolled cigarette and smiled at me like I was the biggest idiot she’d ever seen. I never felt so sheltered, you know? I knew I was going home to my cozy little house, where my mama would be folding my underwear and baking fresh cookies or some shit. And although my daddy could be mean as a hell, I still had a roof over my head. Even after I was turned, I had the old Compton place. And then Hoyt and I had a home, all to ourselves.

But now? I really got nowhere to go. I wonder if Nikki’s still living on the streets or if she found herself a home. Or maybe home is just a feeling, and it doesn’t matter where your feet are. Maybe wherever you are, that’s home.

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first ONE! AHHH

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterJESSICA WILSON

We love you Jess!!! Hang in there girl...You still have friends!! Go to Bill's house. He will understand...And since he's your "dad" and you are technically a minor, he has no choice but to take you in. :)

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterKirsten

Home is where u put ur shoes Jessica. Maybe u need to be on ur own for a bit to understand urself a bit more. U r confused and u need to clear ur head for a the way, I am so glad u were not killed. Hang in there and be strong....... :)

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterMojo Jojo

im sure , as your maker, Bill would welcome you into the house again. and although i know Pam isnt always the best to get along with, she does care about other vamps.

or perhaps you could find your own place. keep working at the bar, and get your own place.

your a vampire, a god of the night. you'll find your way, and there will always be others to help you, all you need is ask

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterAllie-Cat

home is where your heart is! love this show and the books and love where they are taking your character she def adds to the show!

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered Commenterkas

Jessica I’m glad to see your okay And thanks to Jason for saving you in the Nick of time.Jess go Back to Bill’s he always ready to take you and care for you. And theres also Suki, well when she’s not bleeding from a gun shot. I wouldn’t worry about Jason being upset like that, he just doesn’t know how to react with you being Hoyt’s ex. Trust me he’ll come around. And Hoyt always a stand up guy, he’s angry and heart broken right now. Hoyt always seems to do the right thing though when he calms down. Jess you have people that love you close by you don’t have to think about being on the streets....especailly don’t think thats a good idea when a Evil fang hating Witch is running around.

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterJcreech

You will be ok Jessica. bill will take you in dont worry.

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterIsrael

Jess home is where the heart is. If your heart is not with Hoyt, you did the right thing. You need to go home to Bill. You know you will always be welcome there. Sorry you are hurting right now, but you do have lots of friends to help. We love you Jess!

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered Commenteragicfamily

Home is where ever and who ever you fill safe with and at peace. Don't think about Hoyt or Jason right now, you should focus on yourself. If your looking for a home Bill is the place, he's your father and father's love their daughters no matter what. Also I'm glad you lived.

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterEgypt

Jess so happy you did not meet the sun. I am sorry about Hoyt. Don't judge him too badly he is extremely hurt. And as for Jason, you have to admire how loyal he is. He only threw you out because the temptation is so strong and he doesn't want to hurt Hoyt. Go to bill, he will help you understand these feelings you are having. Maybe being on your own for awhile without a relationship will help. Love the show and your character. See you next week!

August 14, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterKat
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