Like You Mean It

Sometimes, back when I was human, I used to pray. The real kind of praying. I had to fake it all the time when my parents were around, but when no one was looking, real late at night, I’d clasp my hands together, get down on my knees and squeeze my eyes shut as tight as I could. I’d think so hard it hurt most of the time. I don’t know if I really believed that god would hear me, or that maybe just the universe would catch wind of it. I wasn’t praying for me or for something I wanted, it was more about reaching people outside of my little life. Hoping that some missing kid I’d seen on the news would be found, or people coming home from war would be safe, that the deaf could hear and the blind could see again.

And even though I’m getting a little tired of having to save Jason with my blood, since it’s mixing up all our feelings, making it hard to tell what’s real and what’s the blood, I’m real glad I got to give him his sight back. Maybe my prayers are coming true, or maybe some things really do come full circle. Not sure what that says about god, about me, or about vampire blood, but I think it says something about the universe.

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Jessica, what you did last night was no work of prayer or the universe or whatever, it was YOU. YOU are the future, YOU are the light of Jason's world, and YOU are his sight. If it weren't for YOU, that boy would be bumping into walls right now, or even dead! I strongly agree with the others in thinking that Hoyt is a spineless bastard for calling your blood shit, because by saying that he is putting down your gateway of bringing light to a world of eternal darkness. You are a freaking SUPERHERO!!!! Do you realize how awesome that is? Who says vampires have to be all naughty? I have faith that you can change the normal pattern of evil and be an inspiration to the other vamps, even

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterBabyvamp Kate

You are sooo right.. What goes around comes around, good or bad. It will.

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterNatasja

You were so sweet with Jason last night!

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterAndy.P

hey Jessica

you are the bomb
And Jason really loves you
And ask Bill that you make a vampire off Jason so you two can stay together forever

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterTimo

I can't belive what I'm reading. Why do people think Jason is so great? You know what ladies that think Jason is God's gift to Jessica. Here's what I hope happens to you. I hope one day you find out that your best friend is lusting after your husband or boy friend. I hope you find out that the man in your life wants to sex with your best friend.

And when that happends. I want you to think back to this. And remember how sweet and cute it was for Jason to start having feelings for Jessica.

Jason is nothing but a worthless, egotistical, selfish peice of shit buddy fucker. This is a guy that started to lust for his best friend's girl friend when they were dating. Yeah that's a great guy. What a crock of shit. And after sleeping with her, he made her fell cheap by wanting her to glamour him, so he can be guilt free and live with himself. While Jessica lives with all the guilt.

Yeah great guy my ass. I hope Jason ends up in a ditch at the end of the road. Even then that's not good enough for him.

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterEdwin

Even the cold heart of a vamp can ignite a fire so bright it blazes through reason and time. If vampires can live forever then shouldn't they be capable of eternal love and peace? Idk, I'm just a guard :).

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterZanarius

Very well done my are definitely on the path to grown-up land after all. Regardless of what you or anyone else believes, God still loves you and was with you at Moon Goddess. Your selfless act of reacting to Jason's injury is proof that you were where you were supposed to be at that moment in your life, and if that's not God, then I don't really know what is. Personally I agree with your reasons for praying in the first place. Praying for ourselves is just a way for us to selfishly validate all of the things we want in life but can't have. Praying for someone else, especially those you don't know, is truly the heart of prayer and by you saying you would do that at such an early time in your human life proves the type of person you are. You're not defined by your "nature", but instead what is inside of you.

Your friend, Tam

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterTamara Alice

Don't think about getting into a relationship right now, You are still adapting. Learn a lot more about yourself before getting involved with another, that way you will know for sure who you are compatible with :)

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered Commenterrachie

Your bumpit in your hair were sooo cute!!!Love it ^^

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered CommenterTootie

cool blog...but where is open caption on your videos?? i am Deaf. i would love to see all videos with cc. other than that, awesome website! :)

September 5, 2011 | Unregistered Commenterdeaf1216
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